The cold has gotten worse

Much as I don’t want to blog about being sick all the time, here I am. The cold is threatening to turn into another bad sinus infection. Nothing seems to help. I’ve been woken up at 2am, coughing because I can’t breathe properly. It makes me feel so fuzzy and tired.

I have things to write. But being sick makes it so hard to get my head in the right space, to access the creative sphere and just let it flow. On top of everything else I need to do to just exist, from day to day, I should still write. I hurt too much.

Cold medicine doesn’t seem to work. I may have to try painkillers, and hope that that will be enough to let me sleep. The headache in my sinuses bothers me the most.

Perhaps I just need to push myself. Just write, even if it’s terrible, even if it’s utterly incoherent. A thousand words a day? Could I do that much? It only takes a week or two of constant repetitions to make something a habit.

//shay

A cold

Sickness seems to just follow me around. It’s the weekend, and I have another cold; my head is fuzzy, my sinuses blocked, and I can’t hear properly out of one ear.

I’m not at the point of going to a doctor and begging for drugs. Not yet, anyway. I don’t think it’s a sinus infection. I’d be far more sick if it was. So it’s unpleasant, but I have to tolerate it as best I can, and wait for my hearing to come back.

The strange thing is that otherwise I feel fine. I’m eating well, working out, and generally trying to take care of myself and succeeding. That it’s only a cold probably means I’m doing something right.

I hope, wherever you are, you’re taking care of yourself too.

//shay