It’s actually a sinus infection

See what I mean about constantly feeling sick? No sooner do I beat one ailment than another one comes to make me feel miserable.

But! But. I’m still writing. Still dreaming. I’ve started compiling a series of story ideas, so I don’t think I’ll run out of stuff to write any time soon. I’m still… not sure if I should write more erotica. I don’t know if that’s where I want to go.


I don’t really watch TV or go to the movies anymore. Most of my time is spent online, reading about topics I’m interested in, or writing and drawing. But I need to get my hit of media from somewhere, and I find most of it sorely lacking in the kind of characters I want to engage with.

I dislike Game of Thrones, also known as Game of Everything Sucks and Everyone is a Horrible Person.

I’m bored by many superhero movies, mostly because the context is lost on me and I don’t get to see enough of Thor or Captain America with their shirts off.

I despise Fifty Shades of Gray and anything like it, so enough of that.

It begs the question: where should I go for interesting stories about interesting people who aren’t airheaded non-entities, or generic white anti-hero guys with brown hair? Where can I find light-hearted comedies that won’t insult my intelligence? I don’t really want drama; I have enough of that all by myself. I want to be entertained. I want something gentle.

I have Netflix, of course, and I do appreciate that the Netflix Original series are at least trying to do something interesting. But I wonder if a lot of TV and movies simply lack kindness, for want of a better word. As if aiming for an adult audience automatically means dark, gritty, complex themes that require intellectual engagement.

Sometimes I think this is why I enjoy a lot of silly reality TV. It’s easy to watch because you know the drama is entirely fabricated, especially on the home renovation shows. But reality TV is at its best when it’s simply shining a light into other people’s lives, and although we can call it unreal (because in many ways it is) it has demands of real-ness that keep it more calm and grounded than the average invented TV drama.

For the record, Fixer Upper is my favorite show.


Digital Nomads

I sometimes watch reality TV.

Okay, this is a lie: I watch a lot of reality TV. In some way, the stories of actual people living their lives is more compelling to me than invented stories of fantasy, when it comes to my own amusement.

I invent my own worlds, but when it comes to entertainment, I want to know other people first.

But it made me think. I’m a digital nomad, in more ways than one. I look to experience the world through the stories told of people far away, delivered to me by the power of the Internet.

I’m also a digital nomad because I have no roots to call my own. I’m a Millennial who can’t afford to buy property, who’s chosen to live far away from family, in a succession of rented spaces. My life here is a nebulous one, easily lifted and packed into a suitcase and transplanted somewhere else.

I don’t regret this. There are pros to being able to shift your location on a whim. Such a whim took me to where I live now, in the Pacific Northwest, and truly I love this place and I’m glad I came here.

Strange how watching random home renovation shows makes me think of this. So many people have nothing but contempt for such TV, but it’s dear to me. The other lives I see are dear to me.

Here’s to all the digital nomads, reaching out to each other over the Internet. May we never be ashamed of what we are.